my adult life

People my age are settling down and getting married. I'm still a kissless virgin. Just the other day an old friend that I knew back in high school has married his gf. I found out after stalking him on the internet. Yes, I stalk people on the internet. I can feel the noose getting tighter and tighter. My testosterone level is getting lower and lower. I'm getting overly emotional like a woman now.

I work in a hospital. I see the young nurses and it makes me so horny and depressed. But, many of them already have boyfriends. I learned that the hard and embarrassing way. I tried to talk to them. Yes, it's completely over for me oh God just send a bolt of thunder on me and kill me. I can see their faces cringe when I try to talk to them. As a result, I end up cringing at myself and the conversation ends there because I can't continue after that.

I've since stopped because I could lose my job if I keep doing such stupid things. I think it's time to check out of this world. I will order some fentanyl and overdose on it. It's obvious that my genetics are not desirable. I can't live to old age. It would be a crime. It's cowardly. It's pathetic. I can't do it. I don't want to do it.

>>8

Marriage and family are for the degenerate white cuckolds. Real men, like Black, Latino and Jewish men, don't settle with any single whore and prefer their sex objects to be young, preferably 14 yo or less.