Why haven't you killed yourself?

I'm too scared to die.

I'm too lazy for that.

I'm not even a programmer

My rope broke last time

I hope one day you can appreciate being alive.

I am stuck in a time loop.

I am stuck in a time loop.

Because you never really die, due to quantum suicide effects.

I'm waiting for half life 3

>>5
Why would I?

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>>10
Because each moment is an opportunity to find happiness. And when you are alive, you can try to find something in this world.

>>12
All happiness is temporary.

>>13
Perhaps. But you've found happiness temporarily? I've been miserable for years. Fuck you.

>>14
So you never masturbate/have sex? Eat good food? Solve problems in a clever way? Listen to good music ? Not even relaxing or dreaming something pleasant?

>>15

So you never masturbate/have sex?

I only do this to reduce urges.

Eat good food?

It's good for a very brief moment. If I could avoid food all together without starving I would.

Solve problems in a clever way?

This is no longer pleasurable for me.

Listen to good music?

Music is only useful for blocking out annoying people.

Not even relaxing or dreaming something pleasant?

If I try to relax, I only become more aware of how empty life is. My dreams are interesting sometimes, but I wouldn't describe them as pleasant.

I get the most fulfillment from visceral experiences in the real world, like running. It gets me out of my head, which usually isn't a good place to be. It hasn't been like this for me for forever, but it has for a number of years. I remember what is was like to be happy about things. It just hasn't happened in a very long time.

Diagnosis:Terminal Autism