>>7I don't think you understand my meaning. By all means, bring yourself some solace by creating, especially by programming. That does not alter the fact that by being born human on this planet, you were sent to hell. Its a hell so complete you can't even see it for what it is. You think the horror that surrounds you makes perfect sense. You think all the madness and the waste is just how it has to be, and we've all just got to deal with it and look on the bright side. And sure, our brains are biased to put up with this place for a few decades. But there comes a point in where the brain sees this place for what it is, and once that happens there is no turning back.
Find that special place where your mind can focus 100% on programming.