The blog of a depressed programmer

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The blog of a depressed programmer

I'm depressed. I'm a programmer. This is my story.
I'll update whenever I feel like it, no promises.

I will be using RSA for signing, I hope you guys don't mind, I just don't want to have my blog 'stolen', so to say. Let's hope the board software doesn't rape the whitespace and causes these signature checks to fail.

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Programmers seem to have many issues when it comes to personal projects. ``Lack of motivation'', ``depression'' or ``not enough time'' are the most common. Mine is somewhat peculiar. I have the time and am not depressed.

I also have all the motivation in the world. Sounds like something desirable, right? Well, I think it's the root of my programming-related problems.

You see, I get excited (not sexually) rather easily. Working on a simple Scheme interpreter in C? Consider all the possibilities. This will be so fun! The final result is going to be amazing! Better re-read those websites about the wonders of Lithp. Those you found a few days ago but never closed and are next to the hundreds of open tabs of Touhou fanart. Okay, time to get working. But look at that peach butt before you actually start.

Time to get started. Blinking cursor. Man, I look forward to the day this is finished. I could even make my own toy language and play around with it. I wonder if I can roll out my own regex engine? Back to the browser, do some reading on regex engines. Look, there's an open tab with a Perl tutorial. But I already read this, better close it. Wait, I didn't know that. What was I supposed to be doing again? Right, wanted to read about regex engines. There's a parser that can do this? Read about parsers. There's your answer: it uses backtracking. Recursion. Never understood how an algorithm could be O(inverse of Ackermann function). Tetration. Fuck, I was reading about parsers! Yeah, I could make a regex engine in my own Scheme when I finish it. Let's try again.

Blinking cursor. Back to the browser, looking for regex engines and Touhou butts. Really hyped for the things I will be able to do if the project is finished successfully, but that's obviously never going to happen if I keep doing this.

Does anyone else have this issue? I know I can deal with this by learning how to meditate but I'm curious to know if there's someone out there who knows how this feels.

Sorry for the intrusion, >>1-san.