The blog of a depressed programmer

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The blog of a depressed programmer

I'm depressed. I'm a programmer. This is my story.
I'll update whenever I feel like it, no promises.

I will be using RSA for signing, I hope you guys don't mind, I just don't want to have my blog 'stolen', so to say. Let's hope the board software doesn't rape the whitespace and causes these signature checks to fail.

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First post: About me.

I figure I'll tell you guys who I am so you can all get some background on me. I'm a 20ish year old NEET hobby coder. Not a lot of my projects get finished and I'm generally a messy person. I'm hoping to get a job somewhere that isn't AGILE and where your pay is determined by how 'hip' you are. A person quite close to me died a while ago and I'm still dealing with that. I also like food, and I cook a lot of food with my mom.

I'm hoping that by opening up to you guys, you're not gonna smack me down like >>10-hime. I hope you guys enjoy my blog...

I've been having some depression issues lately, and it's not really been getting better. I have my ups throughout the day, though. But these downs are really starting to get to me. I should make a small script that plots my mood statistics and produces nice graphs of my mood over time or something. It might be interesting to see the frequency domain of my mood.

Maybe a nice next project, after I've given up on my current one and will start reaping the reusable code from it's corpse. I really don't know what else to write about myself. I guess I'll talk code.

I've given up on my latest project after I realized that even if I finished it? The final product will still fucking suck. I will be able to reuse 85% of the ~580 lines of code I wrote, though, most of it is part of a framework I wrote earlier, so that's good. My framework has been of use to my friend. I won't post source code or go into detail to remain anonymous. Sorry.

I *AM* proud of my well engineered sepples code I wrote, though. It looks good, it's very readable and cost me a lot of time to write. Mostly it was just designing it and research into streams and how they work internally. I'm glad the hard part is over on that one, it's definitely a keeper but not quite done yet.

PS: Sorry for the late post.
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