I'm a schizophrenic alcoholic

I've reached out for help, but so far nothing is working. I won't be surprised if I become homeless again soon.

Imagine a home depot paint bucket full of shit and piss left to sit for weeks. Imagine taking your head and submerging it up to your shoulders in the shit and piss. Imagine opening your mouth and sticking out your tongue and swallowing a big gulp of the shit and piss.